When I was a little child, I lived with my grandparents. My parents were so busy with their business and they did not have much time to be with me. I was not close to my parents at that time because I thought they did not love me so that they put me at my grandparent’s house. Due to that childish thought, I used to be scare of being alone. Being a lone in a house, being alone in a room, being so quiet would make me so nervous. I was fear of being desolate. This fear was last in my life for many years. I would not stay anywhere alone, I always asked someone to stay with me such as my mom, my friends or even my neighbors. I could not sleep alone in my room. I did not know why and I just felt so scary. I became more and more dependent on others. My parents were very worry about that. They talked with me and took me to my godfather, uncle T who is a psychologist. I remember that was the first summer in junior high school. My godfather tried to talk with me by his professional skills. Then, he put me alone in a room with a TV, a camera, and some books. He stood outside to calm my nerves. At first I was really nervous. Day by day, I felt more comfort in a room. I am not sure whether my godfather’s treatment was worth or not because it was just a very short time. I did felt comfort in my godfather’s room but I still did not feel comfort in my own room in my parents’ house. Then, I really do not know when I was not fear of being alone. Time by time, suddenly, I just stepped back and recognize that I could be alone. I thought that the more mature I am the more independent I am. It comes very natural. I think that my fear is because of an obsession of my childhood. Now, I can live alone in American. It means I am over come my fears but sometime I still feel depress about loneliness. Whenever I feel lonely I try to find something to do. I try to not think too much about loneliness and keep myself busy.
4 comments:
You live alone in your house now, but you can see many friends including me on campus. I believe you don't feel lonely.
Michael in our class also is afraid of loneliness. I told him that apart from making us sad, feeling lonely also prevents us from learning. Be sure to make as many friends as possible!
I can understand your feeling because My parents also work. However, I believe that your parents and my pearents love you so much.
Although ur childhood was a little problems, you are a mature person. And I think you will be a successful woman in the future :) So, ur parents are proud of u !!!
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